28 March - dizzy dizzy

28 March ~ hum ~ it's moday ~
I don't need to tell you how HORRIBLE Monday is @_@
Yeah ~ i feel bingeul-bingeul today from woke up last morning until now ~
I feel so 'empty' haha >,<
Heard so many songs today - even i'm still hearing music now -
And you know what ? I cried when watched TeenTop's Angel MV ~
Please note,It was happen not because i like them and feel 'sad' because of the song's meaning~
It was .. more than that ..
I cried because i remembered SS501 in the past ..
I know they were debut 6 years ago .. and I know they were still young .. Still 19 years for the eldest member (Hyun Joong Leader) and 18 years for the youngest (Hyung Joon Baby)
And yeah ~ i felt sad because i can't be their fans from 6 years ago ..
hiks :(

Beside that , i won't hide again from my number one reason.
U know if we fell in love,that must be hurt when your love can't accept you right ?
And yeah ~ i feel that ..
Always .. Every moments I saw that mind becomes more bigger than the last time I thought it..
I always remember kyu everytime this topic goes out from my mind...
*oh yeah ~ there's also yangfan and SECRET boy i like in my real life :P *
Many friends from fangirling world told me from their conversation if you can't love your idols with too over..
But, I didn't want to hear them .. Why ? Maybe because i felt comfortable..
But now ..I feel sorry for myself because i didn't do my 'eonnie' recomendations ~
Now .. I'm realize~ I felt comfort because I didn't know anything .. I'm still a newbie ~
But,after 2 years diving with too many bullshits and truth and lies ~
I know which one can make me feel really comfort and which one will make me feel more bad ~
Just it for today :) ~
Let's wish fangirling world won't be like this time anymore...
Full of fanwar and make their idols become their GOD~

it's lizlemagazine.blogspot.com header actually ^^ I love them <3

cute isn't it ? got from a Triple S friend i made it to be a gif.It's Kyu Jong btw

The most lovely pix from Be My Darling!

This pict i made when I really missed SS501 ;( and I miss them now

25 March - Horrible feeling

;__; dunno why ~
in the midnight i'm still in front my laptop and thinking about high school
seumur-umur sya gak pernah pengen sekolah di lombok
bukan karena saya ragu di lombok sya gak bakal dapat pendidikan terbaik
tapi lebih karena,itu memang mimpi sya sejak dulu..
sma di luar negeri dan pas kuliah pindah lagi..
tapi sepertinya sulit yah mengungkapkan hal seperti itu ke keluarga sendiri.
ToT apalagi nenek ..
huh .. banyak yang nyuruh sya masuk ke salah satu SMA favorit di sini..
Tapi tapi .. arghhhh .. they don't know anything about my dreams and my hopes
jadi sedih :(
padahal mimpi terbesar sya , sya bisa belajar dan kerja keliling dunia ~ *gak ke semua negara sih hehe*
:( sepertinya keluarga sya menganggap maksud dari mimpi terbesar sya itu pas sya udah kerja .. dan bukan mulai dri tahap masih sekolah ..
haish ~ frustating

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